aching
to lay down and hold you
aching
to press close and slide over you
aching
to feel wetness slick hot clingy
aching
to know you
aching
to whisper to you
devotions and divinations
prayers and promises
aching
to give you
all the things of a lover
sun, moon, stars
sands and oceans
mountains and valleys
vows, oaths
knightly deeds of courtship
Epic Bravery
Romantic Lust
Sweet Dreams which could
never survive reality
Sweet Dreams that pulse
in my brain
and drip from my pen
But twist as they leave my mouth
or fly over the keyboard
Tentative and fragile
awkward brick thoughts
without the will of youth
the innocence and eagerness
or the blind foolish faith
Is this what you want?
plagues my every Sweet Dream
words that flew off my tongue in youth
find no easy release ten years later
I would not go back but cannot go forward
no past
no future
and a very uncertain present
Lust equaled Love for ten years
and it was not enough
Break my heart or save me
It's not your job
Whatever ache moves me
is mine to wade through
no past
no future
and only a very uncertain present
all faced alone
even as I ask for solace and distraction
not knowing what I can offer in return
except fumbling and kisses
and a mired passion
2:04 am cdt, 2.26.2009