a yowl in the night (revision 001)

carve the death's head on my heart.
say it's over; let the argument start.

carve the death's head on my heart.
one last time; crack my ribs apart.

sing my praises
while you stomp my dreams.
turn my hope useless
meaningless
lifeless.

sing my praises
and carve the death's head on my heart.
say it's over; now our paths must part.

my child wants to beg while
my stone cold butch wants to say fuck off;
true to form, I close off and lock you out.

a yowl in the night

carve the death's head on my heart.
say it's over; let the argument start.

carve the death's head on my heart.
one last time; crack my ribs apart.

sing my praises
while you stomp my dreams.
make my hope useless
meaningless
obsolete.

sing my praises
and carve the death's head on my heart.
say it's over; now our paths must part.

crack and break
crush and hurt
down to molecular
nothing.

the child in me wants to beg
the stone cold butch wants to say fuck off
true to form
I close off.

bring those walls back up
and hide this bleeding heart
from your stone cold knife
words & fears.

lock you out
like all those who hurt me most
so that you can't carve the death's head
while singing those praises
to my heart.

the flipside of Responsibility

you're walking away

~i would stay~

not fair some might say

~i know it~
~i don't accuse~
~i just long for the day you can stay~

days that make me say "Fuck the World"

Shitstorm rages
pounds my soul
crumples my walls
and crushes my heart

I never cry
never shed a tear
suck up all the pain

I am a hardass
a tough bitch
the strong one for everyone
including myself

I never let someone else hold me
never let someone else hear my whimpers
never let someone else comfort me

This is more than my "I love you"

This is my "I trust you"
This is my"I believe you"
This is my "I need you"